Wednesday, March 17, 2010


Can I just say, how happy and thankful I am that it was so nice out today!!! it was absolutly beautiful out, the sun was shining, the sky was blue, everyone was out enjoying the sun, and going about their st. Pattys day traditions. And I realized how much true beauty there is in days like this. And as I watched the people walk around, i was wondering if they found that beauty too. If they saw the beauty in the sun, and the clouds, the birds, the little kids running outside, the flowers that are slowly but surely blooming. I wondered if they knew the true creator of it all. and my heart ached for them. Because I can remember the times when a beautiful day like this would roll around and I would take it so much for granted. I would just pass it by like any other day. But now days like these are a reminder to me. They remind me that God, creator of heaven and earth, is real, is powerful, is loving, and is bigger than I could ever imagine.
And today, as Tara and I drove (top down of course ;) ) down to the water, and sat there, and as I was trying to find shapes in the clouds, I found hope.
I found hope. A hope that told me that everything is going to work out for good. A hope that told me beauty is in everything, i just need to look a little harder sometimes. Because before beautiful sunny days like this come, theres always the cold dark stormy ones. And sometimes those stormy days can cause damage, things can be pressed, things can be struck down. But we can stand firm in the Lord, because we know that we might be pressed on all sides, but we wont be crushed, we can be struck down, but not destroyed.
I was reminded about all of this, because theres been times in the past few weeks, that I would get so anxious and so stressed and upset about what im going to be doing in the fall. and not knowing, and having completely different ideas as my mom about what i should do. and not wanting to make the wrong decision. and ive been finding it hard to remove myself, and my wants, and my needs and to replace them with Gods wants and Gods ideas, and his will, and not mine. I need to be reminded that with God in control it WILL work out. and its the times when im in control that it goes bad. haha. so true.

" you said there would be joy in the laying down.
you said there would joy in the letting go.
you said there would be joy in the giving up my life.
your river it rushes to the lowest place,
come and rush over me, come and rush over me.
I bow down, I get low, I open up my heart to receive your love."


Heather said...

amen! Know what I was pondering on this past week? that all light/happiness comes from darkness/hardship. God created light out of dark. He didn't take us to a light place and then to a dark one...He took us from a dark place and brought light into it!

He took the Isrealites from egypt and the desert TO the promised land. He takes us from bad to good. Glory to GLORY!

Genesis 50:20